Just a quick note to say,
2011 has been increasingly busy but good all the same. I really hope it has been for you too, with lots of new adventures and loveliness to come in 2012.
And if you’re a hopeless New Years Eve dreamer (I must add I’m not) here is my favourite quote “Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.” Goethe.
have fun, stay safe, be nice x
Hey everyone,
It’s been a couple of weeks hasn’t it? And absolutely nothing has happened on the site has it? TSK! How awful and absurd. Thought I’d drop a quick note to say hi to you all, been a lot going on at work so not really had capacity for anything exciting for here. I did however see Bon Iver on Monday night, an awesome gig, absolutely cracking.
Been working on some more words for some spoken pieces but they need some crafting, think I can construct them into one or two longer better pieces rather than lots of similarly styled shorts.
Got some stuff to update all the parenting/family sections too, just need to take some to do some writing.
I also have been a bit carried away buying domain names, so may have a few projects to update you on soon.
so basically, stuff is happening in my head, and nowhere else.
Speak soon x
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Hello everyone,
I hope you’ve had a good week? Another crazy one in my world, but alas it is the weekend now and lovely it is too. Other than a general panic about the fact I have a driving lesson tomorrow all is well. All is really well in fact. We had a scan yesterday 
52mm’s of incredibly wriggly loveliness, that even waved hello before going to sleep.
012 week scan - Pip 2
So our little family will be getting bigger at the end of April/early May next year. When we had Tilly’s first scan I stared at it for days, sporadically crying, just overwhelmed by the rush of emotions I felt. This time round I was much calmer (a few tears in the scan still) but not the same levels of emotion post scan. I think it’s because it just makes sense, I love being dad, it’s my favourite thing to do, and it’s what I’m best at and another baby just adds to all the love in our house.
In honesty there is another part of me that is a bit ‘cripes there will be two of them’, but that’ll all come out in the wash. I am nervous that I won’t have as tight a bond with this one as I do the bear, but that’s because a) alongside Helen she is my bestest friend ever and b) because I worry that breastfeeding working out this time means I won’t be able to develop that same bond, but again, sense tells me that I will always work hard enough to make it work.
Can’t state enough how much I love being a dad, and another little bean to throw all my heart and soul into sounds great to me Think I’m meandering a bit, but nevermind
Baby – Hooray!
Tidge was funny when we told her, I was looking at the picture she asked me what it was, I told her it was a baby she said ‘no daddy’ giggling then when I told her it was in mummy’s tummy she just ‘no’ zoned out and carried on watching the monstrosity that is In the Night Garden.
Only took a few minutes before she started asking more questions, ‘where is it?’ ‘can I cuddle it?’ ‘I will show it my toys, shoes and books’. She’s asked quite a few times today where the baby is and gleefully told grandma about the baby today. So I think she is set on the idea too Think she will make a wonderful big sister.
So, my world continues to change at ever increasing pace, time to hold on for the ride. Fortunately Helen is feeling much better than she was at this point with Tidge, aside from being really tired and having to eat constantly, so fingers crossed all will be well.
Enjoy your saturday xx
So my girls went away on their jolly holidays this morning. I was sad to say goodbye, but I hope they have fun. I’m sure they will. And if I don’t allow myself to wallow in patheticdom then I will too. This evening has been nice, and so I penned this ramble, which I think we could define as poetry….
I hope you enjoy it
Its been a peaceful evening,
Nothing aggravating or severe.
No cause for sadness other than the obvious
And that’s ok, because i’m acting oblivious.
More or less i’m ok, but something less
Than i was this morning, and yet i am not mourning
i’m just moving forward, in my own clumsy
And moronic way.
i’m thinking of them, of course, how couldn’t i?
They are like my left and right eyes.
But they’re away and that’s ok, they’re away having fun
And Its not everyday that we can all play in the sun.
In these breathless moments, when my heart feels hurried,
I need to remind myself that they are just that,
moments.
And we belong to each other and we know it.
Sure, I could be sad and sullen,
But then i’d miss this opportunity and it’d pass me by.
The world forever turning, offers moments but a few
To lose yourself in living, how you choose to.
So I’ll steady myself, breathe deep and roll on,
Cooking my chill and singing ukulele songs.
And they’ll be back before I know it,
Safe and blessed for a week of the freshest air.
And I’ll be able to see again, knowing that they’re there.
Hey there
Sunday lunchtime again people, so much and so little has happened since this point last week. The good news is a I feel more energised and focussed than I did at this point last week. Some things are becoming clearer in my mind and while the goals aren’t clear I think I’m on a better road. I’m aware how vague and pretenious this sounds, but nevermind, I guess I’m both.
I am on a better road, that thought process from last weekend has swirled and whirled and tumbled freely around my head constantly for the last week, it’s bought me down and thrown me wildly up and at this point, with hindsight, it’s all good.
And you know what folks? I feel peaceful and content that as a family we will get further along this road and find some places that make alot of sense.
In other news my aforementioned beautiful little family are off to Cornwall for a week while I work. Wonderful for them and hopefully good me, an opportunity to throw alot at this site and get some exercise done. I just find it hard when they aren’t with me, they are my world, I think I just need to accept that while I feel bereft with them gone, it does offer some opportunities too. I think it’s going to be an odd week at work too, with my manager, mentor and friend leaving, but as ever, we shall get there.
You guys all have a good week.
Peace and love
Dan x
Hi
2 real quick follow ups to my Sunday Soliloquy post.
I went on to check it had posted ok, there were two banners on the page
Hi all,
Hope everyone is well and having a pleasant weekend. I’m here with the intention of saying everything and nothing really. I have a bit of respite from the crazy world of maintaining a crazy toddler, I’m done with chores (for a bit anyway) and wifey has joined tilly for nap. So sitting with a cup of tea watching spurs vs liverpool, drinking tea and feeling a bit bleary-eyed.
I should probably be sleeping too, I’ve had another hectic work week and have certainly put the effort in at home over the weekend and to be honest I’m feeling pretty pooped. The opportunity to sit in perfect silence with the soul aim of amusing myself has proved too much. Got my typical Sunday head on I suppose, slightly tired, slightly irritable, trying desperately to avoid work-related thoughts for a few more hours and enjoy the rest of the weekend and somewhat vague and thoughtful too.
I spend less time in my head these days, which is ultimately a) a minor miracle and b) entirely necessary. The big thoughts this weekend are of slight dissatisfaction;
Three points very easy to resolve in an hour of peace I’m sure you’ll agree.
The answers for me I suppose are
Today has been a funny sort of day but one that has provided at least a very strong reminder of what’s important to me in life. And in all honesty there is only one thing. I’m not being dramatic, or cheesy and insincere, there is quite simply only one thing I really care about.
My Family.
Simple as that. They are absolutely everything to me.
Not sure why I felt compelled to share that with you all, at the end of the day it’s really perfectly obvious that this is what it would come down to, but there you have it. All I really care about is my family. Sometimes it’s good to have your view refreshed, to re-balance you on where you priorities are and therefore where your focus should lay. And in that one thought, may all your ideas lead you to that place, so you can cherish it most.
I know where my priorities are, but maybe ask yourself - what do you care about most?
Dan x
